im feeling a little disheartened at the moment now that the holidays are over

my job has been super stressful lately and its made wanting to get up at 530 less than great. i still enjoy my job as much as one can enjoy their work but its been such a stress lately i havent wanted to go and the break doesnt seem like it was enough to reset me

and now that i dont have anything rally in the coming weeks to look forward to of sorts im kind of feeling like im going to fall into a rut again

im not really sure what to do about it either sicne my energy levels have been lacking and when im not at work im only able to be awake leisurely for a couple hours at a time before im exhausted again

i know i should be working out to increase my energy and health but like what if that doesnt do it and im just tired and sore and napping and not doing anything i want as a result

i dunno, not having anything to look forward to is really waning on me in the last couple years during down months and i never really know what to do to fill the proverbial void 

and on top of that i have no idea what i want to do with my life or career and i really cant pull that out of a hat and im feeling pretty much like a failure due to not knowing and being in school or a professional school by now

i think ill just go to sleep for now